I'd lie...

huh...that was interesting. i just have to talk to him. it's so much easier said than done though. bleh. really? like, should i have to feel like this? it's been almost a year and here i am still praying for a miracle. does he even know? how can he not, honestly??? why must i like him so much? really, just get over it already, self! jeesh. this is the kicker...i have NO idea what he's thinking...what if? ya know? like what if it's actually something and i'm not imagining things? what if he's thinking about himself what i'm thinking about myself? doubtful i suppose. but still. i understand you are into this new girl...which honestly, i think it's cool. sort of. i mean, i am so happy that you are excited about something. but how can i not wish it was me though. most likely i'm taking all of this the wrong way, but bleh, who cares. i guess i'll just keep wishing and waiting. only time will tell.

and we didn't get a picture together...again. figures.

mood: pessimistic
food: butterfinger easter egg chocolates
music: "and if you asked me if i loved him, i'd lie."